Saturday, May 14, 2005,

....Me and My Current Live.....

Hmm....*speechless,bingung mau mulai dari mana....it's almost a year from my last post,and soooo many things had happened...okay,first, i'm single now,well, not actually single,since i still have someone to love and care,but it's never been this difficult with anyone else than with this guy i like, he's just so unique,complicated,unpredictable,emotional,yet he's the one who makes me happy during my sad and hectic days of live,the one who makes my life more colourful than ever,although sometimes i hate him! :P....okay,enough about him,hahahaha,yeah well i've broken up with my last boyfriend,but we gone through it very well,and i'm still being friends with him,yeah it's still hard to forget the memories,but i have to! :D....another thing is that since last december,i've been working at Citifinancial (i bet you've never heard about it :P),and i've been placed in Depok branch..yeah,how's my work life? one word, HECTIC! hahahaha...i've been busy during my work days that often i do not have time to talk on the phone,or even eat! :p but it's okay,i've learnt a lot,meet lots of talented and smart people and fun also! so sometimes we do need to sacrifiece in order to get something so precious and valuable for our future....and thanks to God,through this job, i can now have my own savings,hahahaha,and try to manage my financial aspect by my ownself...hmm,i think that's all about me beside still trying to make this guy i've told you to be my last one,but if his not,then i do believe that there's someone out there for me....

to conclude, i think i'm currently in the process of living a new life that so complicated yet promising...this is the turning back of my life that i have to go thorugh wheather i like it or not! :D

one more thing,my brother has married now,and yap,the house feels so empty :(

that's all about me now,how about yours? ;)

*still in my brother's room but in an entirely different live situation....*hmmph,how people's live can entirely change in just few months!

torehan dari Karina, 11:54 AM goresan lain

Saturday, August 28, 2004,

.....MenGikuTi KaTa HaTi.......

Haaaaaaaaaai,lagi2 udah lama gue ngga nulis2 di blog ini...seneng dan sedih perasaan gue berkecamuk slalu sejak gue di jakarta ini...gue seneng bisa kumpul lagi sama keluarga dan temen2 gue,sedih karenaa apa hayooo??!! ya apalagi kalo bukan karena jauh sama riza,ihiks,ihiks, jauh sama riza,cowo gue yg gue sayang banget,yg udah gue cinta selama 3 setengah thn lebih...kangeen terus setiap hari,and it hurts sometimes knowing that you're far away with the one that you love.......trus owh yah gue skrg udah lulus,Alhamdulillah,dan gue juga udah kerja,Alhamdulillah lagii,di sebuah perusahaan IT namanya hostdepartment...jadi account administrator gue disana,susaaaah banget ngerti kerjain tugas2nya karena byk ITnya,tp yah gue berusaha..dan still berusahaa!! hahahahaah...

hemm,judul postingan gue kali ini bener2 lagi mengelilingi hidup gue...dalam arti,banyak banget kejadian disekeliling gue yg membuat gue berpikir sama yg namanya ikutin kata hati...dari keputusan gue pindah ke jakarta (yg notabene karena i think that my family needs me now and they wanted me to stay with them),masalah2 pacaran temen2 gue,kakak gue yg lagi ada rencana married,and kestressan gue di hari2 pertama gue kerja...intinya sih semua menuntut gue utk mempertanyakan kesah-an seseorang mengikuti kata hati...gimana kalo hal tersebut justru menyakiti orang lainn??? berattt nih pemikirannnya,kayanya disambung laen kali aja kali yah...well,just asking people to think about it for a minute and two...

***nina dikamar kakanya,dengan keresahan hatinya***

----missing you always riza..."because of you-keith martin-->dedicated to you rizaa!!------

torehan dari Karina, 11:24 PM goresan lain

Monday, July 05, 2004,

_______*setelah sekian lama....*_______

yakk,udah hampir 2 bulan lamanya gue ngga isi blog ini lagi...skrg gue udah dijakarta,skrg tepatnya lagi dikamar kaka gue yg panas (ngga mau nyalain AC takut listrik tambah mahal!! :P) sambil online-an...abis chatting sama riza sambil browsing2 internet...yap,anda bener sekali,gue udah jarak jaug skrg sama riza,dan skrg terasa ngga enaknya,kmaren2 sih santai2 aja,tp lama2 terasa berat juga,keterbatasan smakin banyak...ya sudahlahh,berusaha pasrah aja,hanya itulah yg bisa menguatkan gue utk ngga terlalu sedih ngejalanin long distance relationship ini...gue sama riza cuma bisa ngejalanin...

gue kebanyakan dirumah aja...lebih karena ngga bisa nyetir (gobloknya diriku!! :s) dan papamama memang kebanyakan dirumah,karena memang papa lagi cuti,mau banyak istirahat...kmaren2 paling2 udah kerumahnya alma sama ke PIM aja...mesti belajar nyetir nihh kayanya,soalnya gue udah mulai agak bosann dirumah,pengen jalan euyy!!!...besok rencananya nemenin mama ke rumah sakit,check up aja,pengen berenang juga sih,cuma tergantung besok pagi sempet ngga...pengen bgt nyebur sering2 di jkt yg panas inih,geraaaahhhh!!!....gue udah banyak ngubungin temen2,cuma mereka memang sepertinya masih sibuk,ada yg masih ujian,ada yg mau kerja praktek,dsb dsb...yg alhasil membuat saya semakin harus betah dirumah,hahahaahahahahha.....ngga apa2,belajar pasrah aja ;)...tetep berusaha mencari2 kerja,tp yah belum ngirim2 lamaran lagi...masih harus beli amplop2 lagi,fotocopy dokumen2,dan cetak foto buat resume...huffff!!!

segini aja dulu kali yeee,kapan2 sambung lagi pastinya....

*semoga arwah Kakek Hadi tercinta diterima disisi Allah SWT,Amieenn....*

torehan dari Karina, 11:32 PM goresan lain

Monday, May 17, 2004,

huff,it's been a week from the last day at school,and as you all know,i have no school anymore!...yet still i'm waiting for my results and then ready to set to my lovely hometown of Indonesia...now,starting today,i feel that this is the time for me to get up and starts arrange my job applications, which are supposed to be sent to some Indonesian companies in Singapore...but then,i feel it's too early to send them this week,since i will only able to work in the third week of July...and i have plenty of time to do such things,and i want to do it one by one,cause if i do it all right now,i will end up have nothing to do! heheheheehehehhe.....

let's check all the things that i have to do to get a job!
first,the cover letter, copy of my transcripts and resume,these very important papers are all done (with the help of my guardian angel!! :)),and i just need to put the company's name,address,and job requirements. but,secondly,i don't have a good photo to be attached with the those papers...hemm,i think i will buy the shirt first today and take the photos next saturday,if possible,but then,friday will be nice also..

i already bought the envelopes,and i already got a referee for my application,soooo,i think that's all! all i need just take a photo,and then print out all of my resume and cover letters...

actually,i feel quite pessimistic about getting a job in Singapore...with all "must able to speak chinese and must be singaporean/PR" things make it even harder to get a job...i can learn mandarin actually,but i think 1 month learning is not enough...the thing that makes me want to work in Singapore is my relationship with riza,and this feeling that i want to be independent...the relationship thing may not be such a burden,but still i hope that i will not go through a long distance relationship....but then again,i have to put my family above those things as my parents need their daughter a lot,and if i don't get a job here,then,i will have to go back to Jakarta anyway!!!....i believe my relationship with riza will still be okay although we are far,as long as there is still regular communication between us...anyway,today's technology is advanced in such a way that communication is becoming easier,even if you are miles away...but still,i know,the feeling will be different,but sometimes,we just have to make sacrifices!!!....

okay,that's all about my dilemma which is no longer a dilemma,as i decided to stay in Singapore until end of June,and then if until that moment i still haven't got a job,i will then go back to Indonesia for good,and find a job there...most of all,i think my family needs me now since my brother is getting married beginning of next year...well,i hope i can get along well in my own house,cause i don't know why,sometimes i don't feel comfortable at home,cause everything that i do seems wrong in my mother's eye,and this is hard for me...

see you then...gotta back to the thinking process! ....

torehan dari Karina, 10:50 AM goresan lain

Sunday, May 09, 2004,

________After The "Final Exam"_________

huahhhh,akhirnya selesai juga exam ku yg tinggal satu lagi ituh...ck ck ck sempet pusing2 dan stress berat gituh beberapa hari yg lalu...semoga aja hasilnya bagus dan aku ngga mesti ngulangg,maless banget,soalnya kan tinggal satu subject!!..ya Allah,tolong luluskan saya yahhh....Amieenn...

skrg udahhh bisa seneng2,happy2,jalan2 sama mama yg lagi di sgp,anddd i'm fully available for my friends! soooo,ajak ajak aku yahh kalo pada mau jalan2....

skrg kerjaanku yg penting mau ngurus2 lamaran pekerjaan,termasuk bikin foto,scanning transcript,kirim sana kirim sini lamaran pekerjaan...yahh seputar itulahhhh...laennya sihh intinya bersenang2,gilaaa,3 tahun sekolah S1 saya sering stressnya daripada happynya,ihihihihih,makanya mau menikmati waktu jadi pengangguran dengan sebaik2nya...karena kalo udah kerja kan pasti sibuuuk beratt...trus2 jadi bakalan sering update blog!! asiikkk...kok foto aku ngga muncul2 yahh? sebelll euyyy!

owh iyah,tentang postingan aku dibawah ini,aku menyesal menulisnya,ternyata aku ngga sesendiri ituh dan temen2ku tidak sejahat ituhhh....maafkan diriku teman2ku,kaliann memang teman2 yg baekkk...kalopun kalian tidak baik,aku belajar mengerti dan menerima keadaan...dan ilangin su-uzhon!! haruss ituhh!....

ya udahhh ahh,mau siap2 pergi sama mama dulu yeee...daaaaaaaaaaa...ciaoooo!!!

-luapan kegembiraanku karena udah freeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!-

torehan dari Karina, 11:35 AM goresan lain

Sunday, April 25, 2004,

.....saat ini...aku hanya ingin berteriak...kemudian menghilang ditelan bumi...mungkin aku patut mendapatkan semua cemohan,kepalsuan dari orang2 sekitar...mungkin aku pantas dipergunakan....yang aku minta hanya eksistensi.....tidak banyak,hanya eksistensi bahwa aku ada,aku dibutuhkan,dan aku dihargai...bukan hanya sekedar sampah yg bisa diambil dan ditendang sedemikian rupa....tapii,aku percaya,bahwa diujung sana,masih ada teman2 yg benar2 sayang,dan care sama aku,bukan teman yg hanya menyapa kalau sedang butuh....diujung sana,ada sedikit kebahagiaan untukku,dunia yg penuh dengan teman2 yg baik....dimana aku bisa menjadi diriku,dan aku bisa berbicara....

*untuk teman2 yg sudah aku sayang,tp tidak menyadari eksistensiku.....terima kasih setidaknya kalian sudah menganggap aku teman,walau hanya teman semu...*

torehan dari Karina, 7:50 PM goresan lain

Monday, March 29, 2004,

_________mY 21st BiRtHdaY_________

Ninaku sayang,
Selamat ulang tahun yang ke 21 ya sayangku..
Aku cuma ingin mengatakan kalau aku akan selalu mencintai dan menyayangi kamu.
Cuma kamu yang aku inginkan untuk selalu mendampingiku dalam hidupku.
Aku tidak pernah ingin kita terpisahkan sayangku, dan inilah doaku selalu.
Aku berjanji sayangku, kalau aku akan selalu setia kepada kamu dan tidak pernah berpaling dari kamu, apalagi meninggalkan kamu.
Aku berdoa kepada Allah agar diusia yang ke-21 ini semua urusan kamu akan dimudahkan untuk kamu sayangku (urusan sekolah, urusan mencari kerja nanti, dan semua urusan lainnya), dan juga agar semua rezeki kamu selalu dilancarkan.
Aku cuma ingin yang terbaik untuk kamu, dan agar kamu selalu berbahagia sayangku.
Aku ngga mau kamu banyak pikiran apalagi sampai menangis, karena itu akan membuatku ikut sedih sayangku.
Maafkan aku sayang kalau kadang aku membuat kamu menangis, aku menyesal dan bejanji untuk tidak melakukannya lagi.
Sekali lagi selamat ulang tahun sayangku, ninaku yang paling aku cinta, selalu dan untuk selamanya

Yang selalu mencintaimu,
Rizamu

*a note from someone who understands me inside out....and sayangg,you are my birthday wish! *

-terima kasih untuk semua teman2 baikku yang sudah dengan baiiknya mengucapkan selamat ultah buat akuu...you're the best guys!

torehan dari Karina, 11:13 PM goresan lain